Hmm... Just want to post something early in the morning...

Through yesterday, I came to know many things. From morning to night...

Chat with mum in the morning before she went work and at night when she couldn't sleep. She say alot of things ah. Like I'm 19 and I should know how to take care of myself. I never want to make my mum sad. So most of the time I listen to her. And she say somethings too. But not too good to post in here.

Yesterday, was feeling pretty down... Sometimes you find someone who could share your happiness or sadness but that person just didn't know. It just like an arrow pierces in your heart and there's nothing you can do...

I remember Sok Ling who I know for more than 10 years told me something when I was in sec 5. She told me a girl who was my past was only looking for someone to play. I didn't believe her and end up getting hurt by the girl I once loved.. My good buddy Nizam in sec life told me too that I should not have been together with her too. Of course, that time I was still 2 years young back then. Somethings I will want to try out. Who dun want to be with his/her dream person forever holding hands? That's everyone wished.

That kind of feelings suddenly come to me yesterday. A feeling which really make me life unforgottable.

When I came in poly, I didn't know anyone. I was so sad that time. Girl leave me. Feel like everything was gone. I started to know many friends and see many different kinds of people.

I know Johnson in poly who help me out alot during all these 4 semesters. He's one of the guy whom I can trust. Of course, there are other people too.

I know Carol in maple who help me out in my study and work life. Though I know her in maple, she's one of the few people whom I can trust only. She introduce me to car instructor, educate me alot of things and help me out in whether she can do. And sometimes we chat bo liao stuffs in msn too. haha... Never regret knowing her.

And of course know alot of people whom are nice to me also. I rather have a few trustables friends rather than many friends whom dun care about you.

And not forgetting my buddies as well, Qing Long, Sheng Yang, Calvin. Few people whom I can trust.

I never want to get hurt again ever since from that. Till now, I still have this phobia of getting hurt. But I have fallen for this girl.

Many times, I wanted to hold her hands. But I keep thinking of the past that haunts me... You can say its a bad memory for me... And I'm so afraid it would happens again...

This song speaks my feelings...

你知道嗎
我很喜歡牽著你的手的感覺
那是什麼樣子
我好希望再來一次

懂得讓我微笑的人
再沒有誰比你有天份
輕易闖進我的心門
明天的美夢你完成

整個宇宙 浩瀚無邊的盡頭
每顆渺小星球 全都繞著你走

愛我 非你莫屬
我只願守護 由你給我的幸福
愛我 非你莫屬
也許會 笑著哭 但那人是你所以 不怕苦

懂得讓我流淚的人
給的感動一定是最深
在我心中留下傷痕
你同時點亮了星辰

整個宇宙 浩瀚無邊的盡頭
每顆渺小星球 全都繞著你走

愛我 非你莫屬
我只願守護 由你給我的幸福
愛我 非你莫屬
也許會 笑著哭 但那人是你所以 不怕苦

那麼多相遇
偏偏只和你 天造地設般產生奇蹟
我心的縫隙
我想除了你 任誰也無法填補這空虛

愛我 非你莫屬
我只願守護 由你給我的幸福
愛我 非你莫屬
也許會 笑著哭 但那人是你所以 不怕苦
那個人是你所以 不怕苦

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